my angel baby

I had a miscarriage at 6 weeks pregnant. I woke up saturday july 18th, 2009 and noticed blood so, i went to the hospital after filling my bladder with water enough to try to see the baby since i was not far along. 2 ultrasounds one performed by a ultrasound tech and the other the er doctor they both said they could not see a viable pregnancy and that i had most likely had a miscarriage. My mom was there to watch Jaselle for me during this while i was at the hospital and this i can say is the WORST pain a mother can feel. For someone to tell you that you lost a precious baby and there is nothing you can do about it. I was just turning 6 weeks so there was no need for a d & c. As a mother you should never go through the pain you experience when losing a child no matter what situation. Till i meet my precious angel in heaven....

In memory of our angel baby

A sweet poem for all angel babys...

I thought of you and closed my eyes And prayed to God today I asked, "What makes a Mother?" And I know I heard him say A Mother has a baby This we know is true But, God, can you be a mother When your baby's not with you? Yes, you can he replied With confidence in his voice I give many women babies When they leave it is not their choice Some I send for a lifetime And others for the day And some I send to feel your womb But there's no need to stay. I just don't understand this God I want my baby here He took a breath and cleared his throat And then I saw a tear I wish I could show you What your child is doing Here If you could see your child smile With other children and say "We go to earth to learn our lessons of love and life and fear, but My mommy loved me so much I got to come straight here!" I feel so lucky to have a Mom who had so much love for me I learned my lessons very quickly My Mommy set me free. I miss my Mommy oh so much But I visit her each day When she goes to sleep On her pillow is where I lay I stroke her hair and kiss her cheek And whisper in her ear "Mommy, Please don't be sad today I'm your baby and I am here" So you see my dear sweet one Your children are okay Your babies are here in My home And this is where they'll stay They'll wait for you with Me Until your lessons there are through And on the day that you come home they'll be at the gates waiting for you So now you see What makes a Mother It's the feeling in your heart It's the love you had so much of Right from the very start