Park Time!

Mother's Day

Look at what my baby made me at school! (Here is the quote)

Sometimes you get discouraged
Because I am so small
And always leave my fingerprints
On furniture and walls.

But every day I'm growing -
I'll be grown some day
And all those tiny handprints
Will surely fade away.

So here's a little handprint
Just so you can recall
Exactly how my fingers looked
When I was very small

Tattoo!

I finally got the tattoo of alex's name covered... It feels so good to not have to see his name anymore, thats a big lesson learned dont do that again (putting a man's name on you) a big no no!

* i will go in for my 2nd one which will be jaselle's name on the top of my right foot! ( I will post pictures as soon as i get it done!)

I have not a clue in this world when i will date again! OMG! I started talking to this guy back in October and went out on 1 date with him to the movies i November and i was cautious cause, my heart was still not fully open and ready for heartache again. I finally let my guard down and started being open with this man his name is Adrian, At first i didnt think anything of him like that and i thought maybe he could just be a good friend but, as the days went in to weeks and months, I saw something in him that i liked and wanted to experience more of. I knew that he was in the middle of a divorce, i know i should of just stayed away till he was done and divorced but, i didnt. He has a little boy from that marriage about a year older than jaselle. My parenting plan says that neither me or jaselles dad can have the person we are seeing around her so, i never took her around him or his son. Back to the story i was really good at keeping my feelings low key and then i knew that i would need to tell him that over the course of the time of seeing him i had developed feelings for him well he went mia for like 3-4 days and then texted me and started asking all these questions... I just gave up because, i dont feel like it would of went anywhere with him after that. I miss him and i know that is has to be for the better doesnt it? Like the picture says : I will let him find me this time... ♥

Running smootly so far...

WOW! I havent had the time to blog since last year! Lots has happened!! Me and Jaselle have been enjoying our new place, Me and Alex (jaselles dad) went to mediation in january to set up some kind of parenting plan for visitation cause, he was acting like he didnt care to see her and he is paying child support so i didnt want to look like i had been keeping jaselle away from him... We agreed that she goes with him on Thursdays for the 8 hours that i am working. And Starting June 6th he will get her every other sunday from 3pm to 7pm for the summer until September! Things have been going good so far and she does cry when he takes her but, i do reasure her that she will be back when i get off work... And i can tell that alex is having a good time with her and hopefully they will be able to re build that bond they once shared...

I need my bed back...

Jaselle has been sleeping in my bed with me since she was about 1 years old so about one year now. I didnt have much to complain about at first, she would just sleep and not wake me up and bother me and kick me. Well its just me and her now in my queen size bed and she is crazy she refuses to sleep on her side so that makes for a super long night with a 2 year old sleeping right almost on top of you! Its gonna be a hard thing to do when i have let sleep in my bed for the last year of her life, but i really do need my bed back. She has her own twin size bed in her room ... So that will be my goal to try to have her sleep in her own bed... Wish me luck...

CHRISTmas

I havent blogged in such a LONG time... So many things to talk about.. I cant believe its already holiday season already! Where in the world does the time go? This year has gone by so crazy fast!!! Its starting to feel like CHRISTMAS we got our 1st snow fall of the season last night and its actually still snowing while i type lol. Me and Jaselle put up the christmas tree last weekend... Its so PRETTY and she just loves it ... She says mama twee twee lol too cute. I have about 5 gifts under there and she wont leave them alone. It must be the age! 2 year olds so much fun..